I am bad at this home repair thing...

This is not going to be a post about my ineptitude with tools (although there has been plenty of that in my life). Since we finally purchased our first house I have become quickly initiated into the world of home repairs and maintenance. For some reason I really enjoy turning a wrench on cars but have no desire to pick up tools for the sake of home diy jobs. It's not that I'm a poor handyman - I've actually done a few basic home DIY jobs over the last year, it's just something in my mentality or attitude. Anyway, I am currently listening to a contractor tear apart our upstairs bathroom in the process of tearing out the old flooring and placing new tiles. It's a job that is long overdue and I am very relieved that we have finally gotten around to addressing it. However, I am finding out that I am really bad at this hiring-contractor-for-work thing. Not in the way that you think. I don't mean that I don't know how to find a contractor or that I don't know how to evaluate the work, etc., etc. What I mean is that I cannot relax when the contractor is at work. I am trying to study, but I keep feeling this insistent sense of urgency - this urge to go up and help him with the job. I keep wanting to put on my gloves and grab a hammer so I can help. In fact, at one point, I actually went in and asked Dennis if he would like me to do anything to help. He gave me a funny look and just said that he was fine and that there's no problem. He must've thought I was a bit weird, but I guess I feel really bad that this guy is in my house fixing my problem and I am just sitting around doing nothing. I know I'm paying him and I know that it is his job, his vocation, his specialty. I know that this is what he does for a living, and yet, I feel strangely bad that I'm not in there sweating and working. Maybe after helping Oleg remodel his apartment in Russia I feel that I should just be in there helping, as well. I also think it might have something to do with my childhood - I always saw my dad handle most home tasks and I kinda' grew up learning to do a lot myself. I guess I just feel that it's my job and not someone else's. Finally, I think I just have a hard time with the idea of having someone else labor for me - in spite of the fact that he is being paid for his work. It still feels strangely wrong. Honestly, I think I feel a little guilty for paying someone to do something that I should be doing - it feels kinda' elitist and bourgeoisie. Maybe I feel like a "rich guy" or less of a man. Anyway, I hope Dennis has a smooth time so that he can get this job done quickly and effectively. Not because I'm in a hurry to see our new bathroom floor, it's more because I can't feel comfortable as long as he's up there working hard. As I said in the title to this post - I'm just bad at this whole home repair thing.